What a lonely Christmas this is going to be. I keep trying to put on a brave face and remain positive, I am determined to make the best out of it and really enjoy my day with Reuben... but it's still just going to be me and Reu. And today, a wave of grief hit.… Continue reading Festive feelings.
I held my son to my chest, and I felt my heart swell with love. It's almost overwhelming sometimes; the way I feel such a pang of deep sadness intertwined into that pure, unconditional love. It's especially strong when I stand at my bedroom window, as the light of the day fades (or has faded)… Continue reading Shadows.
I remember the way I felt this time last year. The way the air felt, the white noise of something mechanical humming at night (I still can't figure out what it is), the way the lights across the city seemed crisper... It all reminds me, like the most wonderfully enchanting memory. There is no doubt… Continue reading This Time Last Year
I love being a mother but I don't love being alone. I love blogging but I don't love that it's about readership no matter how much you convince yourself it's not (it does sting a bit when you put effort in to writing and taking pictures and nobody reads it). I love taking photographs but… Continue reading I Love Being A Mother But…
We have been quite unwell this week. First, Reuben was sick through the night and then when he started to recover the next day, we went out, but then by the time we came home, it was my turn! It's not been fun. I'd like to add Reuben has had a mild case of the… Continue reading Survival Tips When You’re Sick
From talking to people I know, to reading people's social media posts, it's evident that a lot of us are struggling to stay motivated - so I'm not the only one, which is comforting, but it is a problem. Maybe it's because of the weather. Or, the more probable explanation, in my case, is the… Continue reading I’m Unmotivated
I wanted to blog every day this month, for no reason other than it was a goal I set myself. But for the last two days, I couldn't. Now I have decided that I don't blog when I don't have Reuben. This is because I really struggle with my mental health when he's away from… Continue reading Letting Go: Mama Standards